The Alchemist- The Mark of Matthias

Arrielle runs towards the alley and all known exits have been blocked, There is nowhere to run. The two dogs corner her with glowing eyes.

Arrielle: Stay away from me doggies. Don't come any closer....

The dogs come closer to growl at her......

Arrielle starts feeling her hands throbbing and she stares at her hands and they start to glow. She feels a "presence" of something inside of her. Her right hand goes outstretched as her palm faces the dogs like "stop".

Arrielle's voice changes into a more commanding tone

Arrielle:  I COMMAND YOU TO STOP RIGHT NOW. HELP ME IN MY CAUSE AND HELP OUR FRIEND HADIEL.......

The dogs obey Arrielle's command as they run to help Dave......

Dave and Rufus fight. Rufus injures Dave and his palms are bleeding. Rufus transforms in his true form.....


Rufus: The mighty Hadiel falls into my hands. Your time is up Hadiel...Say goodbye!

Rufus uses his demon claws to swipe Dave's body


Arrielle arrives with the dogs still in some sort of trance.......


The dogs start to bite and growl at Rufus as he is distracted by the dogs. Dave is still injured but not dead...

Arrielle: RUFUS STAY AWAY FROM HADIEL OR ELSE YOU WILL SEE MY CAPABILITIES...

Rufus: NO!! You can't be the....CHOSEN ONE!

Rufus pushes the dogs away but the dogs are in attack mode ready to strike back at Rufus...

Arrielle: I am sure you will remember this......

Arrielle shows her palms as she shows the Mark of Matthias.......

Rufus gets scared of the mark and decides to flee and disappear....

Rufus: THAT MARK......THE MARK OF MATTHIAS! NOOOOO....WE WILL FINISH THIS ANOTHER TIME ARRIELLE CASINETTI.....

Rufus flees and disappears. Arrielle manages to gain her normal self with no memory of what just happened during her "trance".

Arrielle: Dave, are you ok? You look hurt....Let me take you to the hospital.

Dave: Arrielle, please you must take me to a friend. She is at a yoga studio not far from here. She will know what to do... Are you okay? How did you manage to get away from the dogs?

Arrielle: I don't remember...I just don't know how I ended up where you are at. Look at the dogs, they seem harmless now and they are smiling at me.....

Dave: That's strange.....Maybe after visiting my friend we can help those two find their owners.....

Disapproval of the Monkey Mind

Disapproving Look of the Monkey Mind: Sis and I went to grab dinner at Pizza Studio and this Korean woman(with her family) gave both of us a disapproving dirty look. She does not even know us and gave that weird stare. The Monkey Mind can achieve the Nobel Peace Prize and become a famous religious figure but the downfall of the Monkey Mind is disapproval look, correcting look, ego and telling people what is right when they have no reason to judge others which leads to heart issues. The Monkey Mind deals with heart. They feel society must be controlled to their ideals and whatever does not fit their Monkey World, they get mad and throw a tantrum.

The Alchemist- The Arrival of Rufus

Donovan is wrapping up his case in court where his assistant made a phone call to inform him of a new visitor. His client is agreeing to help Donovan.

Client: What would you like for me to do Donovan?

Donovan: I need someone cut off the lights in this one area of the city.

Client: No problem. I will do it for you.

Donovan: I will also need two German Shepherds to my office. I need mean looking ones with bulk.

Client: Ok.

Donovan's phone rings and Donovan's assistant calls...

Donovan: This is Donovan. Yes...ah just the man I was waiting for has arrived. Perfect!

A mysterious stranger..... has arrived. Donovan's henchman....

Rufus: So this must be Donovan's city.....There is something missing....a little bit of havoc....

Rufus laughs with evil in his eyes.....

Dave is in the middle of his stick fighting techniques in his room when he sensed a presence of the mysterious stranger. Dave knocks on the door to Arrielle's apartment.

Arrielle: Dave, what do you want?

Dave: Arrielle, I think it is time for you to embrace your true nature as an Alchemist.

Arrielle: No! I will not accept this! Leave me alone Dave! I am going to the store and don't even follow me!

Arrielle grabs her keys and starts walking down the streets in front of her apartment. The lights starts to turn off as Arrielle walks towards the store. Rufus appears right in front of the store with two German shepherds.

Rufus: Miss Casinetti, would you please come with me. My boss wants to have a word with you alone.

Arrielle: No! Who are you? Stay away from me!

Arrielle starts running back and hits Dave by accident.

Dave: Arrielle, run and hide. I will take care of this guy for you.

Arrielle runs as Rufus sends the dogs after her. Rufus confronts Dave.

Rufus: You must be the infamous Hadiel...... I am Rufus one of Donovan's hired help. I heard stories about you and this time, you won't be saving Miss Casinetti.

Dave: You have no business getting involved in my affairs. Stay out of my way! You don't know what I am capable of....

Rufus: I am fully aware of you and your so called hand gestures. Let's see if your abilities can match my true form....but first let's see how good you are....

Rufus pulls out his weapon of choice as Dave pulls out his arnis sticks....both of them fight in the streets....

The Alchemist Part 7

Arrielle and Dave are talking about what has transpired the last time they were confronted by Donovan Stratton.

Arrielle: Dave, what's going on here? Why is Donovan after me?

Dave: Arrielle, let me explain. Did you take a trip somewhere many years ago?

Arrielle: I was on a yoga retreat in Tibet.

Dave: Did you feel or see anything strange happen the time you were there?

Arrielle: All I remember was that one night, I thought I saw purple light engulfing the city. I was trying to get back to the tour group but had to stay behind.

Dave: Did you feel weird or did you notice anything different since that trip?

Arrielle: When I got back I felt different electrical sensations in my fingers.

Dave: Like static shock when you touch metal?

Arrielle: Yes. What does my trip to Tibet have something to do with Donovan after me?

Dave: I believe anyone that was in that area got hit with that purple light. For many years people are chosen to help others in many ways that just ordinary human abilities. I felt this time you are one of the chosen ones to help. There are more like you and as a result, people like Donovan have been awakened to take your abilities or use you for the evil purposes.

Arrielle: What's your role in all of this?

Dave: Your guide.

Arrielle: Guide for what?

Dave: To help you with enhancing your alchemist abilities.

Arrielle: What if I decide not to do this?

Dave: You can make that choice but now that Donovan is aware of your abilities, he will send his associates after you.

Arrielle: Can't I just call the police or sue him?

Dave: You saw what he can do right in front of your eyes. You saw what I can do with my hands.

Arrielle: I want to live a normal life. I can't do this....

Dave: What if I told you, you have abilities that surpass mine and one day your abilities will stop people like Donovan or stronger entities.

Arrielle: I will have to think about it.

Dave: I will be around as your guide. You are more powerful than you think Arrielle...

Virgo Women

I am very lucky to have dated more Virgo women in my past. Yes I would go out with them again. I learned there are some Virgo women that are shy and some aggressive. I am looking for one that will approach me and talk to me and really take the time to go out with. I know most of them are workaholics.

Yes I would date more Virgo women. I think a part of me is compatible with them. I would like to take them out for coffee.

Thoughts

I was looking at places to live in Toronto and Vancouver. I found good prices on lofts. It will work for my residence and also my online businesses. I am still working on my advertising and conversion rates for my business. I know my coffee is really good. I am doing well. I know people will love my coffee because I take pride in making it good. It makes me happy to see people who tried my coffee want more of it. I even drink my own coffee which is really funny even though I love other coffeehouses. I still support other coffee places even though I sell the same product. I think that there is a sense of loving other people's product even on the outside you are their competitors. I think that everyone deserves that respect because they all have that goal of having repeat customers.

The Alchemist PT 6

Donovan Stratton is in the courthouse with his client. He is a defending attorney by day.

Judge: Mr. Stratton, are you ready to make the case for your client?

Donovan Stratton: Yes, your honor. My client is innocent due to the fact of misguided facts that have been presented by prosecution. There is no evidence of guilt whatsoever.

Judge: After a thorough review of what's been presented today. I find the defendant not guilty of the crime. Court is dismissed.

Client: Thank you Mr. Stratton.

Donovan: Now I have done my job, I need your cooperation in helping me.

Client: What is it you want me to do?

Class Thoughts

I took my class today and saw someone I have not seen in awhile. I had this person on my LinkedIn and she removed herself from it. I saw her a couple of times and to show I am not mad at her, I hug her. Seeing her in class made me happy. Happy because she reminded me of the ones to come. It's true maybe she has high expectations and I did not fit hers. The good part is she came to take class  and saw me and she greeted me with a wave even though I wasn't sure she was going to show up.

Retrograde

Even with retrograde, I still have to keep advertise my coffee and my sister's Etsy page. Got alot of things accomplished this week. It's not even funny. I want to push my marketing efforts. I also found another person selling coffee and they charge more than I do. At least I know my coffee prices is reasonable. There is more to do and this weekend is going to be a long one.

Advertising

This whole week, I spent more money in advertising than other things in my mind. I found resources to keep going to push my coffee. I sent out samples to those that helped me in my campaigns. I am happy with the validation I am getting from people. So grateful.

Coffee Alchemist Ad

Coffee Alchemist Ad

Couple Fighting For My Coffee

Couple Fighting For My Coffee

Automotive Patent Technology Crowdfunding Video

Automotive Patent Technology Crowdfunding Video

Land of Opportunity Trailer Episode 1 "The Bluff" (Mi Kan Du N E Ting Pr...

Bill and Dave's Random Ramblings-Grave Digging?

Bill and Dave's Random Ramblings-State of Mind

Coffee Alchemist Ad

Coffee Alchemist Ad

Bill and Dave's Random Ramblings- Handstand and Headstand Yoga Poses

Coffee Alchemist Testimonial

Coffee Alchemist Testimonial

Relaxing Day

I had breakfast where I had Canadian Eggs Benedict w/ squaw bread. I got some more marketing done and roasted more samples of coffee for the people that helped me with my advertising. It was worth it!

German Pork Knuckle At HK Style Cafe

I had this for a late lunch, It was worth it!

Coffee Alchemist Testimonial

Why Fresh Coffee Matters

Wonderful Day

I got all of my marketing done. I was able to eat at IKEA.

My New Coffee Ad

On Sale Now!

Productive Day

Even though it rained today, I went ahead and did more advertising in one day than anything else. I got quotes from independent contractors and got the job done. Roasted more coffee samples. I got the ads back from a contractor and was very happy!

I was able to help sis with her website and got more traffic to look at her stuff. I guess volume speaks for itself when trying to get more people to check out stuff.

I treated myself to Oprah Chai from Starbucks. I even ate veggie pizza from Pizza Studio. Worth in getting my ads done. No yoga tomorrow. Taking a break. It will rain tomorrow as well.

Crying Helps

There were many times I would cry. Crying because of the things I did not know how to handle in my life. Crying during the times I did not understand my family and not getting the emotional support I needed. I did not know where to turn to. Even in my past "relationships" I wanted to establish with women. The times I got stood up by women. The times I never got a phone call. The times I did not get a text or pager phone.

All of this emotional trauma made me think about alot of things. Things of the past and the people who never change. The last gal I wanted to go out with was irresponsible. She was more concerned about going out with friends and staying up late when she knew the next day I was going to treat her to vegetarian and take her to a place I love.

I find it funny when others hurt us in so many ways that gets us to the crying stage. Why funny? Because those people that hurt us will always have something for them to resolve and not leave them. I don't mean funny in a bad way. I mean the karma that hits them and after many years, they want to try to get into your good side instead of letting it go.

I cried so many times. It's not even funny. The hoops I had to go through in this country. The red tape and the bs mentality that go with it. I mean pretentious people and their monkey mind ways.

The strength I get after crying gives me something to strive for and to push my projects. I say this again to the women who are interested in me: Stop giving me hints. Just ask me out for coffee and text me. Don't wait for me to ask you out. Why? Because when I ask you out, you don't give yourself time to tell me you can't make the commitment because your friends social time is more important than going out with me. Don't even bother waiting for me. I have my business to run and more important matters. If you are truly interested in dating me, just ask and text me to meet for coffee and show up on time.

The Alchemist PT 5

Dave and Arrielle are talking about what has happened after the two men were about to confront her.

Arrielle: How did you do that with your hands? Who are you? What are you?

Dave: Long story. An Alchemist.

Arrielle: I don't understand.

Dave: I will explain later....but for now we need to leave this place....

Donovan Stratton appears out of nowhere to confront both of them.

Donovan: Hello Hadiel.

Dave: What do you want from me Nikola?

Donovan: Your pupil.

Dave: You can't have her. She is under my protection.

Donovan: Protection? But for how long? Your time will run out Hadiel and you won't even protect anyone soon.

Dave: Don't be too sure about that Nikola. Even you can't touch her as long as I am around.

Arrielle: Who are you guys?

Donovan: I'm Donovan Stratton, Lawyer. My card....By the way Hadiel your hand gestures is not enough for what I have in store for you. Nice to meet you Arrielle Casinetti. Till we meet again!

Donovan disappears into thin air....


Arrielle: Dave, you have alot of explaining to do! An Alchemist...hmmmmm

Dreams

There are some dreams where I see women I know in real life. It's strange they seem to want to communicate and reach out. The ones that fascinate me are the women who I have not yet met and some I won't mention on this blog.

All I know is this...the ones who want to get a hold of me seem to know how to do it. I find it cool and sometimes they do talk and some of them look exactly in person.

Of course they are in color when I see them. It's not like I say "I want to see so and so tonight." There are two women in my mind I want to see in my dreams so I can talk to them. Not at the same dream but in two different ones.

I saw two of my yoga classmates in a dream where they both came to say hi to me. I was so happy they reached out.

Advertising

Doing more to promote my sister's Etsy page. I am getting quotes from indy contractors to keep going. I am doing lots of things to get the word out including my coffee beans. So far so good!

Whaley House San Diego, California

This place is a must visit for anyone sensitive to ghosts. One of the most haunted places in the US. Old Towne San Diego is a hotbed for paranormal activity. I experienced somethings at the Whaley House and I will come back to visit The Whaleys. It's always exciting to go to a place that is really haunted!

Yoga Was So Much Fun

I had a couple of jokes today with sis at class. Everyone I haven't seen in awhile were there. I got a chance to say hi to alot of people. It was just a perfect day, breezy with some sun. It was a great day to be outside doing yoga.

Lots of laughter and everyone was having fun with the comments. There was no uptight people or trying to "shush" others.

I used pure shea butter on my skin to use as a natural sunscreen and it works.

I saw my Dad sent me a text on my phone in a dream. Dad is no longer here. I told him by text that I miss him very much. It was wonderful that he tried to communicate with me in the dream. He did show me a list of things on the text that was way to fast for me to read. The good part is there is one "word" that caught my eye that validated something I wanted. I won't say in my blog what it is. It will manifest itself in it's own time.

A Date With Siri

During class I was thinking of Siri. Siri is a reminder of someone I've been looking for. Many years I've found a couple of Siri and created this picture: This story is similar to Scarlett in some way.

After meeting with Scarlett and my yoga event, I scheduled a date with Siri. Siri and I met in Downtown Toronto. It wasn't your regular online dating thing. Siri actually hit my car while parking. Who could resist a blonde taller than me?

It's odd to ask someone out when you should be exchanging numbers to get the insurance guys to come over and assess the damage. Siri felt bad and I was really not happy to call my insurance to claim a fender bender. I told Siri that we can have my auto body people repair it for a good price under one condition.

Go out on a date with me in Toronto. Siri tells me she is seeing someone but not at that stage in a relationship.I just got a text from her and we are to meet at this casual restaurant.

I learned that Siri teaches yoga. Oh goodie...a yogini. Siri ordered almond milk and I ordered some sort of chai tea drink.

This restaurant has lots of vegetarian faux pas meat. Fake chicken, fake shrimp and other fake meats. How you eat that stuff? Yech! I asked Siri about herself. I learned about her classes and I said maybe I should go ahead and take a couple of them. She offered me a one month free classes. I said I would not be able to do the whole thing. She coax me to go and challenge me to stay for one month. After that one month,

she says she will go on a date with me. Motivation? I say let's raise the stakes a bit. She has that puzzled look. I said " Let's go to one of the parks near downtown where they have star gazing night. It's an event where couples can watch the shooting stars go by.

After one month of I made it through. By that time Siri let go of the guy she was seeing and felt like maybe I have potential. As for the two cars? It was done and no insurance was involved.

Siri and I placed our blankets along other couples wanting to see the shooting stars. As I lay there, thoughts are running in my head. Is Siri for real? What does she really think of me? As the event comes to a close, I saw her cheek next to mine. Sometimes we find complete strangers willing to take a chance with us. Learning to be at that moment. Not worried about how the date will turn out or if she is the one. I can only imagine this Siri is a possibility.

Venting

There are people out there still want to control how people who act and what is appropriate. Laughter is essential to healing others. If there was only uptight control freaks, there would no joy in the world. I was being shushed and was told like a child that my laughter is inappropriate.

I hope that one day those people will find joy in their own hearts to truly be happy. Sometimes crying helps when we needed comforting and assurance. I went through alot and laughter is what heals me and others. It brings out the best in people.

Talking out with these issues with others to resolve old problems is a good way. People need to dig really deep inside on why they are unhappy and what they can do to cry all their stress out. I hope one day people will find that forgiveness.

Growth

Part of the growth process for me is converting my advertising efforts into actual sales for my coffee beans. I see why marketing the most important aspect that cannot be left behind. Even with the best product out there, you still have to get people to buy your product, Giving samples gives feedback. The more I give my samples, the more it validates my roasting efforts.

Roasted Coffee Beans

I roasted some coffee beans today. I tried out one of the beans from this one region. In fact it was mild. I drank some tonight to try it. Love it. Low acidity.

Advertising

I found another idea to use to advertise my product. Conversion rates to create sales is the most important aspect in getting people to actually buy the product. I do have a wonderful product but learning to get people to buy is the key thing.

Playing The Game

I noticed today that some women like to throw hints again. Giving out their number to someone and looking at me. They also mentioned "Starbucks". I will say this again to women. Just be upfront and ask me out on a date flat out. Just say " Here's my number, lets have coffee on Monday of next week. Text me, ok?"

It is not very hard to ask me out. I will not ask women out because:

- They make me jump through hoops like I am just a number not a person

- They make excuses at the last minute and don't show up

- I should charge women $50 for "No Shows" on their CC.

- I should charge $100 for "No Shows" Cash Only

- I do have choices and there are women in my circle that is waiting for their chance.

I am excited to focus on getting better with my looks and eating well.

Model Hiring

I've been working on another way to drive traffic to my online coffee store. So far I found ways to keep going. I am going to keep trying until I get sales conversions.

The Alchemist PT 4

In the offices of Donovan Stratton located in a hi-rise law firm, A man is expecting two men to arrive. A beautiful blonde receptionist knocks on the door to bring in two men.

Donovan: Did you find her?

Man 1: We did. But she had someone interfered during our abduction.

Donovan: This is something unexpected. No matter. Keep an eye on her and follow her around.

Man 2: We will do what you say.

Donovan: Leave me be. I am going to do my own research on this stranger. Oh by the way, here's $20 and go get some sandwiches. I am sure you two are hungry.

The men leave the office. Donovan calls his receptionist on the phone.

Donovan: Abby, I need you to forward my calls on voicemail please. You can have the day off and go. I have some matters to attend to.

Abby: Okay Mr. Stratton.

Abby leaves the office and Donovan locks the door and closes the blinds.

Donovan: Let's see who this stranger is.......

Donovan closes his eyes and he sees the incident of what happened with Arielle.

Donovan: SO IT IS YOU! Meddling in my affairs again. Wait until you see what I have in store for you!

Marketing

I found another advertising method to sell my fresh roasted whole bean coffee. I am glad to try many different ways to get people to buy through samples. I also given my samples away to get people to try it. It does work. My method does work because people will try it.

This method I am going to try is not new. I want to try everything to get people to buy my coffee online. I want people to say "This is the best damn coffee I've ever had in my life!" This is a strong claim and I want to get people excited because my coffee is not only good but it will create jobs!

Foundation For The Future

It took alot of crying, hurt and disappointment for me to really take a good look at my options. It's not easy when you get out of HS, work for someone for 11+yrs only to make hourly wage, with no respect, can't get your vacation when you want it, piling more responsibility and following the rules of your bosses.

I walked out on one of my jobs. It was the best decision I ever made. I never look back. I quit on alot of jobs because I knew I was meant to be more than what my bosses or my coworkers thought of me.

Yeah they call me the nice guy and the happy one. Doing more to draw customers to come to the place of business. I am grateful that I got to meet people and do the things I needed to do. I learned the hard way about office politics.

I did go to a community college after HS and then went for my degree at a post secondary school. The good thing is I have been pushing my screenplays, my other ideas and my coffee.

I am building something for the future. I got things working for me. That is time. All of the things I set in motion from the last three years has brought many blessings to offset my crying. Yes I do cry. I always for progress on what I do and my reward is my persistence and knowing I have a goal to be in another place other than CA.

OK Travel Journal

I did not know what to expect when I flew to Oklahoma City,OK. 5 days in a place I never been to. I am so glad regardless of some normal airport procedures in OKC,Denver and Los Angeles, I was able to have to good time. Of course my dreadlocks got the attention of many people at Denver and OKC. It's not normal to see an Asian guy with dreadlocks. It's unheard of. The good part is I am being myself and regardless of the weird and angry looks, I did just fine.

I totally fell in love with OKC. People are down to earth. Driving is easy. Life is normal. Not very hectic. Lots of progress for expansion. I took notes of people and places. I know when I get a place there, I know where to live on a seasonal basis.

I think I mentioned that women there are aggressive towards me. They will just strike a conversation or accidentally bump into you just to get you to do some small talk. I like women like that. Not like some of the women here in CA. They don't really want to get to know you. It's out of convenience for them. If you don't have money, status and looks, they will ignore you. I would rather go to a place where women will come up and start a conversation with you and follow through.

Pizza Studio

I went with sis to Pizza Studio. I had my first Margherita pizza from them. I always had other pizzas from them. Very simple and so good. Since it was Cinco De Mayo they had $5 unlimited toppings. Worth it!

Long line but worth it! We got done by 4 something. Always good time for pizza!

Slow and Stubborn

There are people in the world that sometimes just don't get it. They want to go with their own schedule even when they know that certain places have limited parking during peak hours. They don't like to be rushed.

The problem with people like this is this..they don't drive to do their own thing. They are needy and can't do it themselves. They are ignorant to learn what's really going on.

If you are supposed to meet people at 10am, you have to do whatever it takes to get there early. Even if you have to wake up way early. I am so glad that other countries feel the need to be punctual in their commitments.

The Alchemist PT 3

Dave went into a dream state that same night after his initial meeting with Arielle. Shadowy figures are being shown to him and it doesn't look good and his dream ends.

The next morning Arielle is doing her morning jog around the block. She sees a couple of men bully a stranger. They take notice of her and they start to run towards her. Luckily Dave was nearby when these men are chasing Arielle.

These men surround Arielle in some odd stare with eyes that are eerie and a slight glow. The men mumble to themselves repeating "she is the one we seek.".

Dave arrives to the scene and talks to the men in front of Arielle.

Dave: Leave her be. You have no business being here.

*Dave shows his palms to the men and they walk away*

Arielle is in shock at what just happened right before her eyes. Her neighbor just got rid of strange men with only the palm of his hands.

Original Place

I talked to sis awhile back. I did not know Dad and Mom back then wanted to move to Canada. Knowing that makes me happy and validated. I know I have something worthwhile to work on. I am setting up the things I need to do to make Canada a reality.

I know many people I talked to told me to "always think about the place you want to be" and to see yourself there. I know I see myself there even when I do business in the US. Having access to that reality is something I want.

That's another thing my future GF will have to ask herself if she wants to move to Canada with me. It is not a case of whether I should or not. I know where I am going and she doesn't have to go with me if she does not want to.

She can stay in the US and do her own thing. I have my wishes being fulfilled and Canada is within reach. Having that said, I got lots to work on like learning French as a third/fourth language. I guess it would not be bad to learn German and Russian too over there. I am sure there are Swedes there too.

Being doing my research to the cities in Canada I want to live. I also want my yoga certification over there. That would be the most raddest thing ever!

My Mistake

I had some interesting "dates" in my life. The difference between my younger self and now is what I gathered over the years about dating in general. It is not a complete solution for men in general because most men who are in "the know", have their own way of dating women and whatever they use works for them. I still going to stick to my ways but with adjustments.

The thing I am tired about asking women out are the flaky ones who say they will go with you and they never show up or they get a better offer from someone else. I felt that being put in that situation really hurts me. My yoga practice and working on getting better physically better is going to help me land dates better.

For those of you women in my circle or yoga classes, here it is. I made the decision not to ask women out on a date. The women have to ask me out on a date. I learned that asking women out does not work for me and my success rate with that is about 20%. I like assertive women who ask me out for coffee. I am not going the traditional route and why should I. I should be more focused on quality dates with women not women who just want someone to be on the side if they have other options.

I don't have to listen to any guy or person that tells me I should be the one asking. You are not me and I am not you. What works for you, only works for you. I am going to do my own thing.

Questions

This is for that woman that chose me to be her bf:

I want you to think about this before going out with me so you will know if I am the one you are supposed to go out with.

Q. What do I have to do to make you feel secure in our relationship when I work and talk with so many women as friends, colleagues and business associates?

Q. Are you okay with dealing with lots of different viewpoints and with someone who has different beliefs and values? For example Buddhist and Asian values.

Q. What do you believe your true strengths are? Trust? Truthful? Business oriented? Balanced? Assertive?

Q. What about dealing with both sides in terms of relatives? How do you balance family relationships between two different families?

Q. How do you handle jealousy, envy and possessiveness?

Q. Are you open to learning other values of others and their culture?

Q. Do you believe that political beliefs are important in a relationship?

Q. If you and I had a very long, loud, heated argument and we both are mad at each other, what can we both do to make up for our differences?

Q. What is the most common activity do both of us enjoy to be closer to each other? For example doing yoga or taking a seminar.

Q. If you had an opportunity to open a business, which business would you open and why?

Trust

I use my blog to vent out my frustrations at times. It's a good release for me especially when strangers I don't even know can understand what is going on in my mind. No one likes to talk about their problems or things they don't want to deal with. I am so grateful to the internet to allow a person to talk about something that bothers them and still be able to heal especially when they are not that very social with people and doing normal things.

What I mean by normal is a 9-5 8 hour job(Typical day but you guys know they can stay overtime since they are by salary) making $40k+ a year. Bachelors degree or Master's, an Audi A4( other than a BMW 3 series), going to happy hour after work drinking, going to upscale bars, picking up men and women and flirting. Going to a sporting event and spending who knows what. Wow, that is an interesting social life.

The interesting about my life is the responsibility and trust my father had in me even when he was alive. Watching over mom and sis. Making sure I take care of their daily needs. These things people take for granted when they have their own family or the life they want.

Close knit family is the karma in this lifetime. The reason it took me awhile to move forward is the responsibility I have with family. It's not easy when you are in an Asian family that is dependent on you in some way since most Westernize countries frown upon that since "being independent" is the social norm.

The good part of all of this sacrifice and all is the progress I am making in my life. My coffee speaks for itself, my screenplays are being viewed, women are noticing me even with the beard. That's right guys, yoga does make you attractive inside and out. I am not just saying that for fun. You want others to take notice, do yoga for a whole year fully committed and you will see what I mean.

Finding opportunity in this country is not easy when your values and social norms does not match societies standards. People look at your weird and you are seen as boring or an outcast.

There are some things I am working on that will help me towards my goal. I know on the outside, you cannot see it. But trust me, in this day in age, it's not how young you are in making your dreams a reality right away, it's more of applying time tested true methods of success not just quick and easy type thing. Wisdom is the reward for staying in your goal to make things happen.

One day when I have my family, I will be ready to commit to my future wife and kids. This woman is around and probably has met me already. I will take my time to get to know her. It's not something you see in films and TV. There is something in how we communicate and my questions will let me know that she is the one worth pursuing.

A Note To Scarlett

This is a reference to someone I met. Names and descriptions have been changed. Only the real Scarlett knows when I say "stare". If you are reading this Scarlett, thank you for making me feel very special. Just by being yourself, made me realize how lucky I am in this lifetime. I know you are working on your projects and I felt there was a reason why you and I met this time. This story is fictional.

A Fictional Story:

I invited Scarlett to my event in Toronto. I gave her itinerary that has her hotel, airfare and car rental. Haven't seen Scarlett in a few years and she came over to see how I am doing. Scarlett is happy now with her family. Her businesses is getting better. What made Scarlett very special to me is her ties to my past life. Scarlett has a crush on me back then and even at that time, it would be awkward for both of us to do something we would regret later on.

Scarlett is very intuitive person. There was something in how she talked me where I knew she can read my mind. It's her look that she gave me that told me we were supposed to work together for a business event. Scarlett knows I married someone I met in Canada. Siri actually knows about Scarlett and the things I told about my crushes back before I married.

Siri actually knows most of the women stories I have. She had a hard time with it at first. I always reminded Siri that no matter how many women I met over the years, that I always come home to her. That is why I suggested to Siri that we travel together for business. She looks for opportunity in each place as I make negotiation deals. Siri loves to travel and knowing I get to sleep with her on my travels.

Scarlett came to the hotel. A private car was assigned to her to be picked up from the hotel to a breakfast location. Siri and I was waiting for Scarlett to arrive. Scarlett was dressed in business casual. After all these years, Scarlett never changed one bit.

We are eating a wonderful meal and Siri had to go back to work. I spent just 20 mins more with Scarlett before heading out to the venue. We have a spot in the convention center where Scarlett had to help set her products and help with the classes.

I found out from Scarlett that "stare" she gave me was her way to letting me know back then that she was really attracted to me. I told her that I knew from the direction she was facing and that gaze/stare was obvious.

The good part is both of us are happy with our relationship. Scarlett was going to stay for only a couple of days before heading back. Siri text me about work and she will be coming home a bit late.

Scarlett brought her inventory and made pretty good sales for the couple of days at the convention center. She even got to teach a class along the way. Now that she has some contacts, she can sell her products in Canada.

Siri and I are happy. Siri did not have to work late after all and we made it a habit to have dinner at home together. Besides Siri runs her own yoga studio in Canada. I am one of her students and I guess when you become a student, there a slight chance that your teacher has the hots for you just like Scarlett's infamous stare.

The only difference is Siri actually asked me out on a date after a few sessions. Not bad for the guy. Siri and I worked hard in our business. It's interesting to note that Siri is taller than me and with blue eyes. Her eyes are medium to dark blue. Those are not contacts, they are eyes of a European beauty.

The Future: Although there is no "Siri" in the present moment, I created a person that is to come. It's strange how even with storytelling, anything is possible.

That Look

About a week ago or so, I went to the this place where I was taking classes. Right at that moment there was a meeting of women. It was interesting that they stopped and gave this stare. I never got that reaction before. Anyway, validation came one weekend when this woman at class, just looked at me for a long time. I won't say her name since she might be reading this and her friends too. I met a few women that did the same for me. I was at Starbucks, and a barista had that same look.

There is something in that "stare" that women give men when deep down they want to just go out there and have sex. It's like seeing a piece of cake and you don't wait for the main course.

I am not saying I am better looking or the best. I think it is more of awareness. I am grateful to that woman that gave me that stare in class. You validated so much for me and I am very grateful.

Funny Dog Moment

I was taking the two dogs to get their rabies shot. The place I go to opens at 10am. With both harness and collar, you would think it would be easy. Oh no, the blonde one got away and walked away towards the parking lot. I had to semi run after with the other dog with me. It was hilarious. Luckily for me the car wasn't far away. I was able to switch one of the harness to the blonde one since she is the one that is always active. After the whole incident, I got the rabies shot done and got a new harness at Target for the blonde. I also promised them both a treat so I bought Alpo chicken flavored dog biscuits. Worked out. Luckily not alot of people at the center.