Get Over It

People like to say that phrase alot and it shows ignorance. People don't want to hear it. I been eating alot since yesterday. Coping with my sadness with someone I really want to get to know better. It showed me that women in CA like to make excuses. They have the whatever personality that foreigners hate.

Her carelessness and disregard to my feelings have been violated. I am crying at times. Angry and frustrated about the dating scene in the US. I try to look at the bright side, the fact that her jealous streak will come out because these other women at yoga class is now going to make their move.

I bet if it were her friends, she would drop everything to see them. She lost my trust and belief in her. Her friend is my yoga instructor. I had to cancel my Sun yoga with him because I won't be able to make people laugh.

This happened before with other women. Women who think they can just play games and use their whatever personality and duality and ADD to cover up their reality and truth. Truth is I am hurting inside. Hurting because women in CA are too inconsistent. They have so many choices that they miss the one in front of them. The one who really wanted to go out.

I know when I meet better quality women, these women are going to change my life. They will say what they mean and they will be considerate and upfront. No CA head games and pretentious personality. This is why I tell people, don't date women in CA. Date someone outside of the country or another state. My advice for people coming to CA for a relationship, don't go here unless you are expecting to get hurt. Get someone from your own state or other country then come to CA. Don't come single and move to CA. Come to CA if you are in a relationship.

I can't wait to leave this place and go somewhere I can be happy. Not putting up with fake women.

Unhappy

I was supposed to go out with this one red head today at the Buddhist Temple. She "overslept" when she knows we had plans to go out today. Very irresponsible of her and disregard to my feelings. I planned this for two weeks and she wants to go tomorrow? Why? Does my plans have to work out with hers when she knows we were going to go out. I got rid of her on FB and my text. Sorry G you blew your chance. You showed me that even with good intentions, you get distracted alot and you can't even commit to one date to have a good time and you want me to make up for your mistake by seeing you on a Friday.

I did that with many girls where I would move my schedule to fit theirs. No more. No text saying I cannot make it because I stayed up late and hung with friends and at least say she doesn't want to go.

All I can say is you caused me to get hurt and I am sad and disappointed. Don't even try to apologize by going to class on Sunday. I am grateful that there are many girls in my class that would take that chance with me. You cannot pick who you want to go out with and choose not to wake up and make a commitment. That's a dual natured person. You have to treat each person with understanding.

If there are women here from my yoga class that is single and you want to go out with me, you have to be consistent with your actions and say what you mean and you cannot say "whatever" because you think you can get away with it. 

Not Happy With This Yogini

I planned to go out with her two weeks  and we were supposed to go out. She woke up late from staying up late. Very irresponsible. Now she wants to go out tomorrow? No thanks. Got rid of her on my phone and text. I remember my instructor told me "Not all yogis practice what they teach". It is only good when they make money but when it comes to being on time and committed, they flake out on you. This is why I like dating a woman outside of CA. They still believe in being punctual.

Blessing

I feel lucky to be where I am at. To be able to keep reaching my goals and looking good. Younger women who take notice. It was never like that when I was younger. Taking care of oneself is the key. Not just for the opposite sex but also for that person who works hard in  reaching their goals and feeling healthy.

Seeing my dad take meds for lots of things forced me to lose weight and to use yoga as a vehicle to reach that goal. Losing dad in 2010 two weeks after my birthday was the hardest thing for me. It forced me to reflect on what I needed to do to lose weight from 185 lbs to now 158lbs. It took 3 years. I had to change.

People don't like change especially when they know they need it. In order for me to get out of that situation of taking meds, I had the power to do cardio and change my eating habits. It took alot of detox from yoga with twists and poses and breathing.

I am not complaining because I am blessed to meet single women. Women who never got to see my ugly past and the struggles I had with my weight. Only a few from FB have seen my before picture. These are women who worked with me so really like me as a person.

There is one gal from my past that truly liked me in 2004 while working in retail. She accepted me and she is Irish. I hope that one day I will say thank you to her for having a crush on me because she was not only attractive but someone with a wonderful personality. Her name is Kelly. I met lots of Kellys in my life. This one saw my true self. The self that was struggling to find himself. If my path with her back in 2004 came true, she would be someone I can see myself with. She's a redhead. About my size. Maybe in another life, she was my wife. All  know is she is special because many of the women I met in the past were superficial.

She saw something in me back then that help me realize how lucky I am to break free from old conditions that lead me to my fitness goals.

Yes women do take notice of guys that take care of their bodies because of the energy needed to get things done. Goals for career and of course stamina for sex. I am sure that some girl out there will see that and not take things for granted. Someone who will accept me as I am and just for what I do. It is rare but she is out there. I am not sure how many dates I have to go to meet women but she is there looking and dating men as well. There is something in how she will answer my question that will validate what I am looking for. It is something that the universe will keep hidden or from prying predictions. Only she will know how to respond in her own way. More blessings on the way. 

Did not reach my goal of $100

The good thing about not reaching this goal is to continue my marketing for my fresh roasted coffee beans with what I have. I am working on something that will help with my marketing.