Crying Helps

I spoke to my sister about tonight after class. We had argued about communication with each other and stuff. I had to let out and cry because I do my best as a brother to her and to be the referee for the family. Dad is no longer here and he did not know how to deal with family stuff. I had reminded my sister that I sacrificed my social life and all to be there for family to run all of their errands and make their lives easier. I should be married by now with 3-4 kids living far away in another country loving my life and being a good father to my own family. Plus on top of that promoting my blog, businesses, screenplays, films and more.

But despite all of this, I know dad is proud of me for being there for family to make sure they are okay. That's what women in general don't understand about being there for family. Especially in the Asian family circle.They think they will go to college, get married with career and leave their parents to do their own thing. Unfortunately that is an American lifestyle which not everyone can do because of salary gaps.

I am doing what it takes to get my business making money and making people happy with my products. The reason why I know I deserve a better wife because she know what it means to be committed to family. Of course she will be taller than me Swedish or Russian.

I reminded sister I committed myself to the family and doing my part to contribute financially through my businesses. I seen things and my electronics and my ideas will sell. 

Teaching Yoga With Siri As My Student- Fictional Story

I slept before 8pm the night before. I am excited to teach yoga at my own studio since my earliest class starts at 5am. All of my morning students are women. They are all in their 20's. Some are college students and some work for corporate.

Siri wanted to come along to join me for class. You know she wants to let the women know that she is mine so it is natural for my students to be aware that I am taken. Of course when Siri is not in class, some of the students work lightly flirt with me.

Of course hugs are one of the things I do to my students and of course I don't make them do it. Some women are just "huggers" in general. You know touchy feely types.

Siri tied her hair up at the crown of the head and wore a basic grey tee and shorts. She had no time for yoga pants not that it matters.

We got there at the studio about 20 mins before class and had a few women wait outside of the studio. I can tell from the faces of the women that they are not too pleased that I brought my gf with me. Out of politeness they have to create that fake smile.

We walked in. Of course I hugged the women as my greeting. I had the lights on. More women arrive and they Siri and same reaction as the earlier ones. Siri can sense it but she doesn't care.

The most interesting part is who gets to be in the front row. I have about 20 women at the studio. They all set up. I asked all of them to check in with me at the front. I showed Siri how I check in the women.

During our poses, everyone seems to be relaxed and some off balanced. We got to the final resting pose and I talked about life in general just as a guide.

I made an announcement to the women that Siri is my gf. It made everyone relax a bit. Sometimes you have to let women know you are taken. When you are the only guy in the room, you have to let women know so they can find someone single.

Siri got a chance to talk to the women after class. It was to release any tension in the class. I am happy that she came with me to class.

Siri and I grabbed an Acai bowl for breakfast. That H&M grey tee looks good on her. It's amazing how something simple as a tee can make me happy.

The Alchemist- Nikola's Jar

Nikola is in his office with the windows closed and dark. He chants into the antique relic he bought at the store with Rufus. Nikola enters into a dream with Arrielle.

Nikola: Arrielle, it is time for me to take what is mine.....

Nikola uses the jar to trap Arch Maiden's essence into the jar. A part of the essence went to his bow.

Arrielle: What have you done to me, Nikola?

Nikola: Without your true form, you are useless now Ms. Casinetti.

Nikola leaves the dream.

Gloria

I wasn't sure why Gloria showed up in my dream at the buffet table. I left her alone to do her thing and never bothered or be a pest to her in real life. And yet here she is wanting to get my attention. I don't just think about someone and then they show up in a dream.

I know things have changed and I accepted it. 

A Country Singer Named Test

An auditorium was 1/4 filled with HS students were gathering around during lunch break. I was supposed to watch the auditorium and at the podium there was a blonde female whom I semi recognized. She smiled at me. A small group of HS was semi in front of her. I walked up and said "I'm hungry and I will go to lunch." She said "Okay, I will perform and play music when you get back." A tall football player said "Sorry" as I was talking to "Test" since the HS students heard me talking to her. I told Test.." You must have one of those steel guitars" and I was making steel guitar twanging sounds. All she did was smile. Hmmm a country singer.

It was a good dream for me even though the dream did not make sense to me. I am grateful that they showed me "Test".